Mental Health Mondays: How bipolar disorder influences my life

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Around 25% of adults suffer from a mental illness. I want to raise awareness about this issue, and help people understand the different aspects of living with a mental disorder a bit better. That’s why I’m launching a series of guest posts called Mental Health Mondays, where I give other people the opportunity to share their experiences with mental disorders. This week, Victoria from Bipolar And Me shares how bipolar disorder affects different aspects of her life.

Before I begin my post I wanted to take some time to introduce myself. My name is Victoria Jones and I have bipolar disorder. I am 25 years of age and I am currently living with my grandmother. Life can be difficult at times for me because bipolar disorder affects every aspect of my life.

I moved in with my grandmother December 1st of 2015. I have almost been here a year. Today I am not going to focus on my past (before I moved in with my grandmother.) I am going to be focusing on my time living with my grandmother and how my bipolar disorder affected areas of my life.

Moving in with my grandmother

This was not a happy time for me. My mother was going in to get a bone marrow transplant. She was not happy with my decision to move in with my grandmother. The doctors at the mental health inpatient care unit I was in decided that It would be best for me to move out of my mother and her boyfriend’s house because It wasn’t helping me. I was angry and depressed.

When I did move in with my grandmother I wasn’t happy, I was depressed and full of anger. I took my anger out on my grandmother, I was mentally and emotionally abusive toward her. It was the only thing I knew. I didn’t know how to be happy. I soon began to sleep most of the day. The only time I would leave my room was when I had to. My room became my “Safe Place.” and still is today.

Along with bipolar disorder and depression, I also deal with having anxiety on a daily basis. There are times where I just want to sit in my own little corner and be by myself. Big groups, loud noises, and some other little things bother me to the point I have anxiety attacks. During most of my anxiety attacks, I want everything to disappear. Going into my own little world or leaving the situation is the only thing that helps. After I usually feel sad and depressed.

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How Has Bipolar Disorder Affected My Everyday Life?

Bipolar Disorder affects everyone differently. For me, I get more spurts of hypomania than I become depressed. During my spurts of hypomania, I feel overly confident, get a ton of ideas at once and want to do all of them, and can be really energetic and talkative. Sometimes during these times I feel absolutely horrible.

There are times when I am just angry at the world, there doesn’t have to be a reason but all I feel is anger. There are also times when the anger turns into sadness.

Bipolar Disorder affects my everyday life in different ways, it just depends on the day.

Today is the day before Thanksgiving and I feel totally fine and relaxed, and am spending time with my family. I also take medicines to help me feel this way. Sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t.

Bipolar disorder affects how I am around my friends.

Sometimes I’m quiet and sometimes I am not. There are times when I just want to be on the go, and there are times where I would rather hang out and watch a movie. I have learned that it can’t be all about me but we have to do some things that my friends want to do.

There are times when I am with friends that my moods change from minute to minute and I am thankful to have friends who understand what is going on and who are able to help me.

Bipolar Disorder doesn’t really affect my hobbies.

I mainly like to write music and poetry. Sometimes my writing gets influenced by the mood I am in.

Bipolar Disorder affects different people in different ways.

We all have our own personalities and our moods are different from one another. This post is just about how bipolar disorder and depression affect me. I hope you enjoyed reading this post and I hope you have learned something new!

You can connect with Victoria through Twitter or her blog Bipolar And Me



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21 Comments

  1. Thank you for giving me this opportunity to write this post for you! I am happy with how it turned out! Hopefully it will be able to help others who are going through something similar.

  2. How incredibly brave of Victoria to share her struggles with mental health on your blog. I tried connecting with her on Twitter but the link does not work so I followed her blog instead. I have depression, anxiety and a form of OCD- but instead of being obsessed with cleanliness I get obsessive, compulsive thoughts that are often quite unhealthy and hard to deal with. I feel for her and it is amazing that she is so open, biopolar is not an easy thing to live with xx

    1. Her Twitter handle changed to @bipolarandme25, the link should be working now 🙂
      But I agree with you, it’s really brave talking about this. And I’m sorry to hear about your own struggles with OCD, depression, and anxiety.

  3. It’s so good to raise awareness about something pretty many people has but it’s not spoken about that much! My husband’s stepdad is having a bipolar disorder so there wasn’t anything new to me, but this was such a great read 🙂

  4. Thank you, Victoria, for being so open and honest about your mental health issues. Everytime another person is brave enough to raise their head above the parapet it makes it easier for all of us to say “me too” and it might be the stimulus someone needs to admit a problem and ask for help.

  5. Such a brave lady to share your experiences. I actually wonder if I suffer with a bipolar disorder, I have incredible ‘highs’ very similar to what you describe, then I crash. Kaz x

  6. Thanks for sharing your story Victoria it takes courage and I am sure it will help someone too. There is still stigma around mental health but not everywhere and this kind of awareness helps people learn more

  7. Thank you for sharing something so intimate with us. I know from experience that talking openly and honestly about your mental health can be really difficult so I think you’re really brave to open up like this. Wishing you all the best.
    Katja xxx
    http://www.katnapped.com

  8. I have no idea how it is to actually have this, but I can tell from your post that it must be not so easy always. However whenever we stay positive and deal with it the best we can, this is all we can do in the end. Beautiful honest post!

  9. This is really interesting. Thank you so much for sharing. I honestly didn’t really know that much about bipolar disorder. But it’s great that you’ve had the courage to write this, and be able to help others who are going through something similar xx

  10. It is so good to become aware of these “issues” many people suffer from. The topic really fascinated me, thanks for sharing victoria.

  11. I think what I’m getting from this post is that you have a lot of awareness about your bipolar, and this will help you move forward. I think it’s so helpful to discuss your experience, as I’m sure a lot of people will be able to relate to it

  12. Thank you for writing this post Victoria its so well written and so brave of you. My mum also suffers from Bipolar so I have found this very interesting to read from someone else’s perspective.