This post is going to be a very personal one, about a trippy experience I had during guided meditation in one of my previous therapy sessions. As soon as I got home I wanted to share it with everyone, and according to a poll I placed on Twitter people were interested in hearing my story as well.
But while writing this post, I felt both excited and scared. And I’ve had many moments where I wanted to erase everything I wrote because it felt too personal. But I decided to publish it anyway, because it’s a good comfort zone challenge, and because talking about mental health is important.
Summer is slowly coming to an end, the days are getting shorter and colder, and I see autumn themed posts everywhere. The perfect time to reflect on the past few months. As always, there were quite a few ups and downs, but overall I had an awesome summer, which I’m really grateful for.
Some people have a hard time imagining what anxiety exactly is or what an anxiety attack feels like. It’s more than just feeling a bit stressed for a test, or feeling scared in a dangerous situation. That’s why I like to describe my anxiety attacks as a crashing computer.
Computers receive input and process that into output. But my computer isn’t always working properly. Sometimes there’s just too much going on. And then the input becomes too much for my computer to handle. So it stops working. It crashes.
Last month I wrote about my experience with mood tracking apps. I noticed that keeping track of my emotions and thoughts did help me manage my anxiety better, but the apps just weren’t the right medium. So after I wrote that post, I decided to make my own mood tracking system. I made a printable to use on a daily basis. It’s very easy and quick to fill in, and it forces you to think about your experiences and also has room to practice gratitude. You can download it for free and start using it as well, by signing up for my newsletter at the bottom of this post or in the sidebar.
Arachnophobia, fear of spiders, is one of the most common phobias. In the United States, more than 30% of the population is afraid of the eight-legged creatures. For the first 19 years of my life, I suffered from this phobia as well, until I unintentionally overcame my fear.