Keeping a mood journal is an excellent way to monitor your emotions and thoughts. It can be used to discover a relation between your mood and certain situations or behaviours. The way you keep track of your emotions doesn’t really matter, what’s important is that you use a method that works for you. You can write down your mood at certain time intervals, answer a set of questions whenever your mood changes, fill in a form every evening, etc. Some prefer pen and paper, others use mood tracking apps.
I decided to start tracking my mood a few months ago but I am still trying to find the method that works best for me. One of the things I really wanted to try out were mood tracking apps. I downloaded Moodtrack Diary, the most popular mood tracking app in my store region, and used it to actively track my feelings for two weeks. Besides Moodtrack Diary, I also tried out Emoly for a few days.
Going on a vacation should be a relaxing, happy experience. However, for me it often is an extremely stressful time. There is so much that can go wrong and every little inconvenience feels worse when it happens in a country you’re not familiar with. I just got back from a holiday outside of Norway, and created a list of everything that scares me when traveling.
Anxiety comes in many different shapes. Some people have social anxiety, they’re scared of social situations. Some have seemingly random panic attacks and others suffer from post traumatic stress disorder. Some break out in sweat, some yell and others turn silent.
To me, anxiety means thinking in worst-case scenarios. It means being worried about everything that can go wrong. It means overthinking all the possible outcomes of any situation. It means being scared of not living up to the expectations of others or the expectations myself. Anxiety means becoming tense in my shoulders, tense in my back and tense in my legs. It means becoming less aware of my surroundings and not being able to think straight anymore. It means failing to translate my feelings into words and it means blackouts. It means being afraid of winning and afraid of losing. And most of all, anxiety means total chaos.
Not that long ago someone told me about the positivity challenge. The point of it is to only have positive thoughts for an entire week. As soon as you start having any negative feelings or thoughts, you will either have to twist them into something positive or try to think of something else instead.
It sounded great and very promising: no more stress or anxiety, no more sadness, no more anger, only positivity. So I decided to give it a try. In fact, I tried it multiple times and it never worked for me. Trying to turn negative emotions around brought even more negativity in my life.
“What does he see in you? No, I’m serious. I don’t understand. What does he like about? I don’t understand why someone would want to be with you.” I’ve heard these exact words three times in my life, coming out of the mouth of the same person: my mother.