Writing usually helps me process my feelings pretty well, so I’ve always been a fan of keeping a diary. Whenever something’s on my mind, I write it down. Sometimes I like what I write, so I decided to start sharing some of these better diary entries. This is the first one, written on a dark Sunday afternoon mid-October, and is about feeling happy.
Summer lasted a long time this year in Oslo. By the start of October, I could still go to work without needing a jacket, and there was so much sun that the shortening of the days was less noticeable. And then suddenly autumn hit last week. The days are darker and colder, today we didn’t even see the sun, but only gray clouds.
But surprisingly enough, I still feel happy. Happier than I was before, to be honest. I liked the darkness today. I sat in front of the window for quite a while, enjoying my view on the monotone clouds. And I didn’t mind the darkness. Everything looked so beautiful, everything felt so perfect.
Sometimes those dark and cold winter nights feel warm and bright. The darkness outside makes lights so much more beautiful, makes them shine so much brighter, and the blankets, wool socks, and sweaters make everything feel so much more cozy.
I really feel like I am where I am supposed to be, right now. Everything feels just right today. I feel happy, I’m motivated, I’m productive and I’m confident for the future. I like days like these. Just enjoying life as it is, enjoying the beauty of life, even when it’s dark outside.
Not every day will be as good as this one. But just like the darkness makes lights shine brighter, the bad days will only make the good ones better. When I fall I will get back up again, and I’ll shine brighter than before.
The pictures I made for this post are also for sale on Society6.